Greetings, readers! And welcome to my web development blog.
I’m one week in to freeCodeCamp and I’m really excited to share my thoughts with you so far. But first, I figure I should catch you up with where I’ve been and how I’ve gotten to this point.
I started learning HTML back in the early 2000s. Then I added some coding and some photoshop in there. But it was all just hobby stuff. It wasn’t until about 2009 that a friend came into the bar where I was bartending and asked me if I’d ever thought about doing web design. It was this conversation that I credit to starting me down the road as a professional web developer.
I did freelance here and there for awhile, but struggled a lot, being self taught and having gaps in my knowledge. I was so eager to start making money that I decided to forgo devoting time to learning, and just jump right in with client work. That went okay, but it was insanely frustrating coming up against roadblocks and needing outside help to solve them. Finally, the frustration was too much for me and I stopped designing altogether.
Fast forward to this year, which I’ve spent working as a teacher’s assistant in a Montessori preschool. It has been incredibly fun, exciting, fascinating, adorable, hilarious, and hug-filled. But I’ve also gotten sick five times in eight months, I’m exhausted, and I’m just not earning enough to be where I want to be in terms of my financial future. So with a lot of hesitation, I think this will be my last year. And back to web development it is.
I’ve always had a lot of fear around web work. A lot of worry and shame and fear of failure. A lot of frustration, too, and anger and resentment. But all of that is because I didn’t do it right the first time around. I put myself out there before I was ready. I needed a stronger foundation of skills – more than just a strong knowledge of HTML and CSS. That isn’t enough anymore. A designer needs to be a developer these days. And she needs to know how to code.
So this time, while the fear of failure is still very much there, and the memories of the seemingly impossible bugs to fix are still fresh in my mind… I feel at the same time relatively at ease about the endeavor. Because I know it will be better this time. My approach will be all different. My mentality will be all different. And hopefully, my results will be very different.
The old way was the reason I struggled so much. I put so much pressure on myself to be a successful web designer, without nourishing myself — neither in terms of growing my knowledge and skillset, nor in terms of my personal life and keeping a healthy work-life balance.
The new way is the reason I will succeed. I will have patience. I will respect myself no matter what. And I will remember that if I keep learning, I will keep improving. And with improvement comes new opportunities. And opportunities lead to success.
And that’s why I’m so excited about freeCodeCamp. Stay tuned for the next post where I’ll share with you all my thoughts on the first week!